As I started to free write I found myself writing about what was going through my mind right at that moment. It wasn't necessarily pleasant becasue I was very frustrated at the time. I would say that because no one was watching, listening, or reading what I was writing it was much easier to get out what I wanted to say. I used it as a venting session. It was kind of nice and rejuvenating to do so. I do have to say I found myself having an issue writing it only becasue I had so much to say and not very much time. It was like my mind was saying more thoughts that I could possibly write down.
Now to expand a little on what I actually was writing about...
I vented about all the frustrations I have been having with some of my classes, actually one in particular. I was feeling extremely overwhelmed with my life, school and work all together. It's like I had a lot of things to do and no time to do all of them. I was piled with reading, essays, reviewing papers, meeting with group partners, family issues and so so much more. I wish I could talk about it all, but I can't. I have to say that I am extremely thankful for the online Social Work Program at Humboldt, becasue without it I would have had to drop school for the year and start again next year at a different school. That would have meant that I would loose my scholarship, and I definitely can't afford to do that. But on the other hand I find it much harder and more frustrating and taking face to face classes on campus. So I am struggling with it, but I am doing alright. I think it will get a lot better once I have the ways of online learning down. I feel that doing group work is the hardest thing for me becasue I don't live in or close enough to Arcata to meet my group in person, so we have to find other ways to do it. That means a whole lot more than it sounds becasue the groups I have been put in I have consistently had one person that is very hard to contact or get to respond back to the rest of the group. Even though I know we have to do group work and it is a good way for us to meet each other in our cohort, I find it much easier to do the work on my own...
Anyways that is my little venting session. I could probable go on for hours talking about this, but unfortunately I don't have the time considering I barely have the time to sleep.
Hang in there Dani it will pass. I have felt overwhelmed with managing home, work and school life also. Keep in mind you have resources to help like your fellow students. I also find it really helpful to just write it all down and work on the list. I find if it is on paper it is not circling in my brain. I hope you are able to find a little time to do something for yourself this weekend.
ReplyDeleteI can relate with you on the group thing because I was also frustrated. What made me even more frustrated was that we share the grade. I am also having problems getting organized and juggling life, work, school, and everything else that jumps up. Hang in there and if you need to talk I am always there just pick up the phone.
ReplyDeleteThank you Jodie and Sheila. I do have to say the peer encouragement helps. I think I am mostly overwhelmed by school and work becasue it is all new to me. First time with online classes and I started my job on the same day as school. I know we can all do it with a little help from each other!!!
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